I am not going to compete. I may not even beg. I may simply just drift away.
That is why I was so bad at poly.
My thoughts were always if they want my attention they will give me attention. If they wanted to come find me I am right here.
Then suddenly you realize no one is trying anymore. You look up and wonder what happened to that relationship or that friendship.
The problem is sometimes you do have to compete but not in the way where you pit yourself against another person but in the way where you put in the effort. You practice and you desire the win and you want to keep on winning.
Winning their love, their friendship, but mostly their happiness because if you can be a part of that somehow that is all you need.
Lisa Gray 