I have been slowing down on sharing myself lately. For many reasons. First, I am worried about filling the void with meaningless interactions and thinking that I somehow need the attention to be loved. This is not unlike my teenage years when I thought making someone cum was my way to get love and positive… Continue reading Slowing Down
Tag: love
Is this our song?
Do you have a song with someone? I have lots of songs that bring up people and memories of them. Roxette brings up a schoolgirl crush that wasn't really a crush. I just thought I was supposed to have one, so I looked out the bus window when someone asked who my crush was, and… Continue reading Is this our song?
Scars
My scars are ugly. No, Baby. I can never see you that way. Don't think of yourself that way. It's not my outsides, Daddy. It’s my insides. Baby, we all have scars. That doesn’t mean you are not worthy of this. Worthy of something special. Now come here. Let me show you how beautiful you… Continue reading Scars
Presence
A smart man said something about living in the now, being present. (It was Garth. He has a lot of great quotes.) Many people say it, actually. I think I am doing ok with it. Enjoying where the road takes me. Enjoying the calm that has suddenly cast itself upon me. It is a weird… Continue reading Presence
Just Tell Me
You know what I want to hear, so just tell me. Say it like you mean it. You can tell me other things, too. Say it directly so it seeps in. Let me feel it deep down in my soul. That is where you sit, right in the heart of me.
Lisa Gray 