That’s My Trick

We are more alike than he knows. It is hard to see and think about sometimes.

The way we feel about each other. The way we need each other’s energy to sustain us. But when that energy fades even a little, we pull away.

We may also question things and see how others would be better off without us. That is what ended my marriage, honestly. That’s how we justify leaving. We tell ourselves things to make it sit right and feel like the right decision when things are off or when things seem too insurmountable, and we don’t know how to fix it.

But that is me over here wanting to figure out how to fix it. What to do to make it right. I want to fight for it. I don’t want to be the only one, though, and I don’t want it to be a losing battle.