Reflections

Happy Father’s Day

It is time to celebrate all those Dads and Daddies who show up. I am mostly thinking about my kids’ dad and my Daddy.

Both are great dads in all the roles they play.

I am glad I am here instead of a child again with no real nice father figure. I have been thinking about my father and what my world would have been like had he not died at such a young age for him and for me.

But, I don’t think I would have been me. I would have been some other person. Maybe my dad would have counteracted all the negative treatment from my mom. There would have been a lot less of leaving the kids with random people all the time. Not feeling love in traditional ways.

Kink may never have even crossed my mind. I may not feel the need for a Daddy figure. I may not have met everyone I have met, including my husband. I wouldn’t have felt the need to run so far away.

I miss the idea of my Dad. But I am grateful for the Dads and Daddies that showed up in big ways in my life.

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