Pillion 

Finally saw Pillion. I am going to be real, the idea of Alexander Skarsgard playing a gay leather daddy was all it took for me to want to see it. I wasn’t expecting too much outside of getting to see him with a man. I have always felt he is meant to be bi or pan.

But anyway.

The movie was a pleasant surprise. Slow but they got so much right. First, he is not really a daddy type just a master and sadist. He did his usual quiet and brooding thing with smolder which is enough really.

I was drawn to the submissive character of course and the way they played him was so true to form. There was the excitement at the start. The longing to belong to someone and agreeing to anything that would please them.

Then as time goes by, you overthink. Maybe you have that bratty moment or maybe you think you have a safe space to talk out what you think could make it better for you. Of course, you realize in that moment, they don’t care. They have everything perfect for them. Maybe there is a break and some consideration for a moment where they let their human come out and let you be human too. If you are lucky.

I never can get past that two year mark. That is the point where my head can get out of that sub space more and take a look around and see what it is I am actually getting out of the connection.

I feel like this is why I gravitate to Daddy’s. There is an element of consideration and care there that may not be inside a sadist. Don’t get me wrong, I love the sadist part. I love the energy that brings, love to be able to be an instrument for their pleasure. Toyed with in that way, but combine that with the care of a Daddy and I think you could have something very close to perfect.