Sitting in a hospital room and will likely nod off soon but as I was in this drowsy state between consciousness and unconsciousness, I thought about what I miss right now.
I miss feeling like I had someone by my side. Having someone I was secure in their feelings for me because they showed their desire for me. They shared in that feeling of seeing each other as important. It was clear that each of us was the priority to the other.
I miss leaning on someone but also having someone that allowed me to be there for them to lean on. Someone that opened up to me.
I miss that not because I am needy or need someone to nurture and take care of me but because I want that person as an individual to be in my life in some way.
I want that feeling of rightness and connection with a person. Even though you don’t believe in a higher power or the matrix programming your existence, there is something out there that made this person for you. I want to feel that again.
Lisa Gray 
This is one of those I want me from someone else. That is not necessarily something you should expect. I don’t need them to hang on my every word and connect on everything or have a wealth of shared experiences, but it would be nice to see an interest in me. Ask thoughtful questions, be curious about me and my existence. I am shy and insecure so waiting for me to share myself may not work.
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