My Plus One

I had an interesting conversation at work yesterday about being in charge of our own happiness and emotions and needs.

I agree that feelings are ours to deal with but that doesn’t mean others can’t have compassion and empathy. There is a war in my brain about needs. On one hand we are in charge of our own needs, but it is also fine to have a need for intimacy and companionship. Those needs can’t be met by ourselves.

Before this conversation, I was already thinking about those needs and how I really miss having my plus one partner. He had been there for me for 30 years, but over the past 2 or 3 years, that person has slipped away, evolved into something else.

My romantic relationships have been online with people across the world. I truly love these people, but sometimes it’s hard not having them here in front of me. Not being able to go on adventures together or date nights or support each other in those plus one type of events.

I miss that a lot.