Sometimes there are unhealthy things in relationships. There are manipulation tactics used to maintain control over someone.
Where I generally have a problem is that I didn’t have many healthy relationships growing up. Everyone has their own baggage, and I have plenty of mine.
So I tend to be an easy target. But it is not necessarily all about that. I also see people for more than their actions. I dive into a story of explanation. I understand and empathize. That tends to make me more forgiving of things.
This can be good and bad. It can leave me hanging on to something longer than I need to. Trying to figure out what all the things are that are not being said. Trying to look into a person and see what is really there behind the mask.
It can be exciting too. To think about how I was the one targeted. That I was seen as somehow worth the trouble.
I have no ending for this. No deep thoughts on how I can do better. Just recognizing myself. Just seeing me for who I am because I may be the only one to look.
Lisa Gray 