Presence

A smart man said something about living in the now, being present. (It was Garth. He has a lot of great quotes.)

Many people say it, actually. I think I am doing ok with it. Enjoying where the road takes me. Enjoying the calm that has suddenly cast itself upon me.

It is a weird feeling when you go through crisis after crisis, and then suddenly it is over. Almost as bad as the crisis, because you are left with a hole. Left to just sit with yourself.

I know a few people who don’t like that feeling of being alone with nothing to do, so they fill it with things. I sometimes do too. Wine and sex come to mind, but I am getting better at that.

I had a weird dream about the past, and I was trying to create a list for a friend to update them on the big things. I wish I could have held on to the list. I think it’s proof of how I am seeing things differently. How my life has moved on from certain things. Not there yet, but close.

Will enjoy the moment without needing the clarity.