The Darkness Inside Them

I am longing for your poison
Like a cancer for its prey
Shot an arrow, in your harbor
Where you waited in the rain
I am sire, I am ivy
I am no one, I’m nobody
I am longing for your honey
I am longing for your love

And the shot goes through my head and back
Gun shot, I can’t take it back

Lay me down in your ocean
Carry me and my burden
I was dreaming about your honey
I was hoping you’d save me (Gunshot by Lykke Li)

Sometimes I feel there is a darkness inside them. I know I should run from it. But somehow I can’t. I want to look it in the eye. I want to know it.

That is the most frustrating part. Asking to see all of them. Telling them I won’t judge. And still, silence. Deflection, hiding within themselves, too scared to show me the way.

I don’t mind being scared. I don’t mind not knowing how to react. Just tell me.