Distractions

Is it a distraction or an escape? How about something real?

I continue to get frustrated with the idea that people see me as a distraction. I want something more than that with someone I want.

It is not that there are no people out there who are looking for something real. It is that the ones I want do not have the energy or interest in making something real, and that is really frustrating and sad and leads me to all sorts of confusing thoughts about what to do next. And I really just need them to tell me what to do.