It is hard when you run out of words. I’m typing this today after posting several pieces here and elsewhere. And decide to schedule this for tomorrow when you will read it. I don’t want to inundate people, and maybe tomorrow will be my day to run out.
It is harder when you see them run out of words. You can understand that they are burnt out or have disappeared because they have something else going on. Maybe they just checked out for a few days to be with loved ones. But sometimes it is not about them and those times. It is about seeing others to whom you give lots of words run out of words for you. You see, they have plenty of words for others but not for you anymore.
It is sometimes just a cycle. Just a way for them to distance themselves for a while so they can give attention to those they crave it back from. That is what hurts. Not having that person who craves you and wants to give you all their words and their life. It is not about being unhappy about one person, but just longing for your person. The one you want and wants you back. The one that has lots of words to make you feel good and make you feel secure.
I miss the feeling of security, the shared longing, and the actions that back up those words.
Lisa Gray 