Need

I have been thinking about that word a lot. In some relationships, I feel too needy.

But I am wondering in one, did I become not needy enough?

Did I not show that need in the right way.?

When you sit and try to process what happened it is easy to focus on one perspective over another. It is easy to try to place blame on one thing.

But it is never one thing. In a relationship, it is two people who are both making decisions and feeling a whole bunch of messy feelings and deciding if they are worthy of sharing.

It is two people who decide is it worth the effort? Is it something that just needs to sit for a while? If I give space and time, will it work itself out?

In that space, you lose something. You lose the trying. You lose the process of working on the problem together.

Then suddenly you realize there is no together and you wonder where the Hell did it go.