I have to admit something. I am an emotional masochist, and I very much gravitate to a sadist. Certain kinds of sadists. The problem is that one particular one is really good at what he does. He made me addicted to his voice and his face, then he had to take one away, then the… Continue reading Brat Addiction
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The I’s have it
I have been listening to music lately, and instead of just the old playlist I have been on, I started alphabetically through all my songs on my phone. I got to the I's the last few days, and it made me think about how much of a masochist I really am. Some songs had me… Continue reading The I’s have it
If Love’s Not Violent, It’s Not Real
7 words Words that I believed. That is how I felt about abuse, too, growing up. If it isn't violent, then it is not really abuse. I was very wrong about that. It's about knowing there are enough feelings, enough passion, to want to love me violently. It's about turning off my brain and putting… Continue reading If Love’s Not Violent, It’s Not Real
The Struggle
I was reminded yesterday about my feelings on the struggle. There are all types of struggles, and I wrote about how we sometimes devalue the act of struggling. What if I rephrase and reframe that, though? Maybe if I use the word suffer, my brain can get the hit that I need. Maybe I can… Continue reading The Struggle
Pleasure in Sadness
Sitting in an emotion masochism class this morning. There is so much here that is relatable. I love the community I find online that offers space for growth and learning. But it is nice too to get to listen to people who help validate your experiences or help you put a name to things. I… Continue reading Pleasure in Sadness
Lisa Gray 