It is almost Valentine’s Day. I was scrolling through messages from last year, trying to remember what life was lifing with before. Not much has changed, although a lot has changed.
It feels weird. I wasn’t sure where I would be, and I had thought I was completely alone last year, but I wasn’t. I am not completely alone now, either. It feels like I am. I will be physically alone for most of the time, and the martyr in me wishes that could be true all of the time. I sometimes have those days where I wish I could wallow in it. Sit by myself with feelings of loneliness. It seems like it would bebetter to be lonely by yourself than in a crowd. I don’t know why that is.
The interesting thing is, I still have compersion for everyone else. I love that other people can have loved ones close. I hope that all of you reading have a life full of happiness. Even if you are alone or if you are not, you have someone beautiful to love.
Lisa Gray 