I was thinking about that fit again. The way people fit together. On one hand, I think people get hung up on having to fit perfectly. But at times, it really isn’t going to connect, no matter how hard you try to put it together and force your way in.
I was having such a good conversation with someone over this past week that it took me a minute to think about what I was doing. It had been a while since someone had come along and asked me questions about myself and got me to open up. If you look closely enough, it came through a bit in my writing this week. I was thinking about my past some. There is always a little bit of me in my stories, but I can sometimes hide the truth among the fantasy.
But, from the start, there were big things, not just the location, that were going to make it hard, and once I fully agree to a dynamic, I want to be all in. I don’t mind playing around with it and role-playing, but I do struggle with how the ones that want to give me attention want to just give me sexual attention. Part of this is the places I am and where I open up and what I share. It makes it hard to turn away people you know won’t fit, but try to offer something you really want.
As a submissive, I am working on not being so submissive. Not letting people walk all over me. It is so easy when I am not interested or don’t feel any connection, but when I am attracted to someone (their whole self, not just their outsides), then I want to give my all to them.
Lisa Gray 