Wish I knew what you were looking for
Might have known what you would find
Under the Milky Way tonight
(Under the Milky Way by The Church)
I heard this song today, driving into work. I decided to listen to something different besides my same old tired playlist, so I tuned into 1st Wave on XM.
It actually made me imagine a cute little mouse singing up at the moon, wondering if someone was looking up at it too, and thinking about them. I have had similar thoughts, and sometimes I let myself believe it is true.
I can be fanciful in that way. I can role-play that love hard, and for those who show it to me, I can develop something big and romantic. I can have trust issues and still believe in romance, too. Sometimes I am treated in such a way that I am ignored and neglected, and it is no surprise that I struggle with trust.
But I am a more open person. Not everything is black and white, and for some people, I understand when life takes them away. (Although sometimes I do want to yell and scream and cry and be a brat about it, telling myself I have just as much going on. )
I would rather believe in the story I am telling myself. I rather believe that there is still something out there for me. I still have a chance for them to find me.
I am not done here, yet.
Lisa Gray 