Feeling rejection all the way around today, but work stuff is getting in the way of really focusing on and thinking about the reality of some of this. I am trying to create a new path there, and some of the work I have put into pushing my boss to focus is beginning to come to fruitation but I haven’t decided if it is good or bad. No upward mobility there, and I keep getting shifted side to side without too much of. a bump in salary, even though I am doing a lot more management than my title suggests.
I got my first book draft rejection from a publisher. I know there will be many more, especially if I keep trying, and I want to keep trying.
I had also submitted an essay for an online magazine. It specifically wants messy non-AI writings. I am pretty good at messy rambles, so I submitted something. I haven’t heard back yet, and I am tempted to go ahead and post it here instead. It is about me grappling with the idea of dating in my 50s. I don’t want to do it. I want Daddy to magically appear at my doorstep. I want him to trust me with his life and all his secrets.
Lisa Gray 