Longing

Miller’s Girl Cairo Sweet: Literature is my solace in the solitude. And writing is my only escape, because, you see, I’ve never left the edges of this town. It’s positively gothic, really. Lonely girl longs to be meaningful. Lonely girl longs to be loved. Books make longing to seem romantic, but it’s awful. It’s greedy, and I wear longing like a fucking veil.

I captured this quote, thinking about how I don’t mind being greedy. That longing is a constant state these days. I am not as young anymore, and especially not at the start of my awakening, as Cairo is in this film. I enjoy having already experienced life in so many ways. That doesn’t stop me from dreaming and longing for more.

In my quest to consume and connect to things that remind me of him, I find it interesting how I long for him and want to connect to and create those stories where we skip past the newness and naivety we had in our younger lives and first times of trying at love. I have come to appreciate those more complex tales of connecting to others and seeing characters with more depth and even a hardness that makes the soft side so much sweeter to consume. Somehow, knowing that a person has been worn in by life makes it feel much more special to feel chosen by them and feel absolutely lucky and privileged that they let you in enough to see them.