I will be honest; I do not remember actually watching that Tori Spelling TV movie, but when I was younger, I ate up those types of stories.
I remember being 10 and watching Fatal Vision with Gary Cole (who will always be from Office Space in my mind) and seeing that the real-life person was sitting in a jail in my state and getting out when I turned 15. That scared me more than any Freddy or Jason flick. Being so young, I couldn’t understand the concept that this person had an opportunity and a passion for the person they killed and were not going to go find random people to kill.
Later, I became fascinated with crimes of passion. I did not have a lot of experience with being loved actively growing up, so I was drawn to the idea that someone felt so strongly about someone that they could be spurred into such actions.
This is why I am attracted to primal or sadistic people. I want to be worthy of that level of passion and see it. I think of it as someone so out of control with love for me, but honestly, these people have so much control, and you want them to have it. You want them to know how far they can go.
Will they love me enough? Will I be worthy of that passion? These are the things I think about.
Lisa Gray 