Sometimes middle space means singing along to music that reminds me of being young again. I am not one that regresses. Middle space for me is about reliving or reimagining a young adult life that is healthy. One that reintroduces love and sex in my life in more healthy ways instead of being forced into at 5 and then completely ignored at 15.
I love the feeling of not being responsible for others and being taken care of as a teen. Coming into your own, having a little bit of agency, and making mistakes with someone there to catch you.
It is also about craving a Daddy figure. Let me be his princess, the one that gets spoiled. The one that gets all the good attention. The one that gets all the praise (although can be disciplined and told how to be better).
Singing along to this song, I am also reminded of how fraught feelings can be for teens about their broken hearts. It is a crazy time of not being fully emotionally developed and in a frenzy for love and affection at least that is how my teen years were. I am so glad to move past that time of making bad decisions and staying in toxic situations.
Lisa Gray 