Yes, all of these things are related for me. I have this toxic trait of martyrdom that plays into my emotional masochism. I sometimes break my own heart thinking that others do not want to be with me or set me as any type of priority in their lives. I have partners and metas and… Continue reading Heartbreak, Emotional Masochism, Compersion
Tag: Power Exchange
Bruised
I have started to post pictures online more frequently. When I first started on a certain social media site, I was not very active at all. A question came through today that made me think about why. A lot of that time in the beginning was just taking everything in. It can be overwhelming. It… Continue reading Bruised
Oops, you Missed a Step
I have been reflecting on dynamics lately. I had a writing prompt for a story yesterday, The Contract. Technically I have never had a contract. Nothing in writing that I could hold onto or look back on. I have had a few dynamics, though, and a few situationships. I find it interesting that this step… Continue reading Oops, you Missed a Step
Do You Smile When you Suffer?
There are some types of suffering that make me smile. I will suffer if it means your pleasure. Does it feel good to have your hands squeezing my sides? (Well, yes it does. Maybe that is a bad example.) Does it feel good to have your hand pulling my hair, directing me where to go?… Continue reading Do You Smile When you Suffer?
Claimed
I sometimes wonder what it would take for me to feel truly claimed. What does that mean to me and how do I get there? I will be honest that much of that has to come from within for me, but I also feel that it hasn’t happened completely. I have been in a few… Continue reading Claimed
Lisa Gray 