Every morning I look at his face and listen to his voice saying things to me that I long to hear repeated over and over. I long for him to think them. This week I am having to let go of a lot of things . Maybe I should have let go of him, too… Continue reading Voices
Tag: Ownership
The Perfect Sadist
He is the perfect sadist to my emotional masochist. Daddy has left marks without even lifting a hand or touching me. Leaves me with that uncertainty and unsettling feeling. Some marks puncture the skin and draw blood, but that is not necessary to get the blood pumping and the heart racing. Maybe though, I will… Continue reading The Perfect Sadist
That Catch
Do you feel it? Do you know how frustrating it is for me? Do you feel that frustration, too? I sometimes remind myself of that need. It calls out to you. Hoping that someday it can find you. Maybe one day our needs can meet each other.
Hurt
You know, the first time you have sex, it's not supposed to hurt. Right? --- Winnie from Miller's Girl But it needs to. I need it to hurt me emotionally as well as physically. I need it to change me.
Haunting
You haunt me. But I want to haunt you the way you haunt me. I want to affect you the way you affect me. I want you to feel the desperation. I want you to feel me possess you.
Lisa Gray 