I find myself in a strange position today. A crossroads. I knew it was coming. I have been worried about it for the past year and gearing up for it. But for the first time in 30 years, I have no romantic partners. The juxtaposition of a dynamic ending this week and watching my mom… Continue reading I am not ok and maybe that is ok
Tag: mental-health
Safety/Ramble/Vague Posting
If there ever was just an emotional ramble of words, this would be it. I am going to first apologize for that. There may be some good lessons here, and there may not be. You may know what I am talking about, or I may be too vague, trying to keep as much drama out… Continue reading Safety/Ramble/Vague Posting
Breathe into Me
Do you ever feel at times as if you're not a person? What I wish to say is that you're not truly present, nor alive, as if you're at the whim of another, like a dog. Someone or something had the power to breathe life into you, to move you. (Ellen Hunter from Nosfurato) When… Continue reading Breathe into Me
When their Words Were Your Porn
Their words, their love, their support have been important to me for some time. We have been chatting and fantasizing and when I come, I think of him and his words. But when those words stop coming, so do I. I have had little chance to breathe the past week much less anything else. I… Continue reading When their Words Were Your Porn
Where do you Go?
When you need a break, do you disappear? Where do you go? Is it somewhere physical or just a place in your mind? Sometimes I don’t have the luxury to run away like I would like so I take trips in my mind. I build worlds for me to live in, places for me to… Continue reading Where do you Go?
Lisa Gray 