"How do I end this, how do I escape our relationship", but you tell me "You can't. Even when you owe me nothing, and I owe you nothing it will not be over, our relationship will be dormant as I wait for you, should you ever wish to come back to me." This was part… Continue reading Dormant
Breathe into Me
Do you ever feel at times as if you're not a person? What I wish to say is that you're not truly present, nor alive, as if you're at the whim of another, like a dog. Someone or something had the power to breathe life into you, to move you. (Ellen Hunter from Nosfurato) When… Continue reading Breathe into Me
When their Words Were Your Porn
Their words, their love, their support have been important to me for some time. We have been chatting and fantasizing and when I come, I think of him and his words. But when those words stop coming, so do I. I have had little chance to breathe the past week much less anything else. I… Continue reading When their Words Were Your Porn
The Beast
Have I mentioned I love Beauty and the Beast? I love the thought of some beastly man kidnapping me and locking me up with only a library and him to occupy me. I can imagine sitting in a wingback chair, book in hand, legs spilling over the arm of the chair. I feel him come… Continue reading The Beast
Missing You
I just want to say that. I hope that you know who you are. I hope that you know that my feelings for you were real even if our time together is just a fantasy. I miss your smile. I miss your playfulness. I miss the energy of dancing around that line of being your… Continue reading Missing You
Lisa Gray 