Yes, all of these things are related for me. I have this toxic trait of martyrdom that plays into my emotional masochism. I sometimes break my own heart thinking that others do not want to be with me or set me as any type of priority in their lives. I have partners and metas and… Continue reading Heartbreak, Emotional Masochism, Compersion
Category: Reflections
Love is Blind
It is Friday night and I am living my best life at home hiding in my room and binging trash tv. Yes, this is what my kinky life is like. Lots of time prioritizing my peace mixed with play time and sexy times flirting with other people. Some weeks, I have way too much fun… Continue reading Love is Blind
Open and Ready
I like to say I am open and ready. This phrase can have a lot of different meanings. When I say it, I am sending something out into the world or universe letting whoever is in charge know that I am ready for the next things. I feel like things come to me when I… Continue reading Open and Ready
Falling
What does it feel like for you when you fall in love? I want to feel that again. I want to get wrapped up in someone so deeply I don’t want to let go. One of the things I enjoy about being poly is the opportunity to connect with new people. There is an excitement… Continue reading Falling
What was I made for?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cW8VLC9nnTo So much I loved about the Barbie movie and so much to relate to. As a woman and as a child growing up, I had a lesson from my mother. She taught me to stand on my own two feet. A measure of success was finding a man to take care of you, though… Continue reading What was I made for?
Lisa Gray 