"How do I end this, how do I escape our relationship", but you tell me "You can't. Even when you owe me nothing, and I owe you nothing it will not be over, our relationship will be dormant as I wait for you, should you ever wish to come back to me." This was part… Continue reading Dormant
Category: Reflections
Breathe into Me
Do you ever feel at times as if you're not a person? What I wish to say is that you're not truly present, nor alive, as if you're at the whim of another, like a dog. Someone or something had the power to breathe life into you, to move you. (Ellen Hunter from Nosfurato) When… Continue reading Breathe into Me
When their Words Were Your Porn
Their words, their love, their support have been important to me for some time. We have been chatting and fantasizing and when I come, I think of him and his words. But when those words stop coming, so do I. I have had little chance to breathe the past week much less anything else. I… Continue reading When their Words Were Your Porn
Alone but maybe not
There are some days I feel alone but when it is hard and I mean really hard, there are people here for me. I need to remember and hold on to that. There are days I want to run away from certain people and responsibilities. My mother tried to do that this weekend. She is… Continue reading Alone but maybe not
Toy
When you are a toy and you just want to be used. Sometimes it is hard when you are getting to know someone and life gets in the way. You have two sides of yourself that need to be triggered. You want o be the toy that gets used but you also want to be… Continue reading Toy
Lisa Gray 