Or even if I should. I might should just sit with it more. I love him. And I hate the world. I hate it for showing me what this could really be like and then tearing it away from me over and over. I just had this feeling that he was mine. He was made… Continue reading I don’t know how to write this
Category: Reflections
Life is a House of Horrors
“You can’t control the bad things that happen in life, Tom. . . There is a quote I love. I got it in cross stitch. I’m going to read it to you. ‘The world is violent and mercurial. It will have its way with you . . . We live in a perpetually burning building,… Continue reading Life is a House of Horrors
When your words are not good
I really like writing and using my words and here on this blog it is a time for me to journal and get out my thoughts. But sometimes my thoughts aren’t pretty. Sometimes they are filled with insecurities that I try to explain away or even rage against. It can be hard to see what… Continue reading When your words are not good
Bother
When you don’t want to bother them but you really want to bother them. You want your silence to mean something like giving them space when they need it but you want your words to mean just as much when they return. Feeling abandoned is something I am used to and I hate to be… Continue reading Bother
Thinking about the Past
I just read a note that said don’t answer when the past comes calling, there is nothing more to say. But when I saw it, I was thinking about the past. Thinking about the first few conversations I had with Daddy. They have been deleted and I am so sorry I didn’t save them. I… Continue reading Thinking about the Past
Lisa Gray 