I want to see his hunger. I share mine with him but it’s hard when I can’t see his. How do I know it is really there if I can’t see it?
Author: Lisa Gray
Former librarian turned wannabe author. Writing on my perspectives as a poly kinkster and submissive.
Holding Back
Sometimes I feel them holding back. I wonder what it is that has them there in the zone of untrusting. I sometimes feel I share too much, but I want to be a model for them to share whatever they want. Sometimes I feel a shift in this, like it is possible suddenly for me… Continue reading Holding Back
Don’t Hurt Yourself
I sometimes hurt my own feelings. I convince myself something is off or I read into things. I am sometimes right which makes things difficult to decipher. Spending a lifetime paying attention to others’ moods and actions just doesn’t turn off. That is the only way I know how to keep the peace and keep… Continue reading Don’t Hurt Yourself
Known and Felt
Some things are felt long before they are known. That is a message I received today and it can have me frustrated, that unknowing. It is becoming a catch phrase. I have a decision to make. Continue to flow and let it go or take action and be more confrontational. This is something that pops… Continue reading Known and Felt
Something about the More
I feel like I will almost want more. And I know why. I want to know it is real. I want to believe in the fairy tale. I want to think the person I am connecting with is real and really feels that connection. I want the reassurance. I want to feel the love. I… Continue reading Something about the More
Lisa Gray 