Punishment

When you hunger for something you can’t yet name. When you want something you can’t yet have.

How do you deal with that? Do you wait patiently or do you start to act out?

What if I act out and realize that what I want and what I really need is a firm hand? I need him to tell me what to do. I need him to take me in hand, and punish me when I deserve it.

I need to be told what to do to ensure he is happy and I can stay his.