Likely, OK definitely.
I have this tendency to come in strong with wanting to serve someone. In the past, I have been bad at sustaining that. I get burned out in that role; for me, it has been a role and an extension of past trauma.
My last dom tried to get me to explain why I always tell him I am not a service sub when I seem to serve him so well. I think he thought he was special and in some ways he was. It helped that it was online and he gave me the creativity (his words) to complete tasks in my own way and at my own pace.
But the Brat would come out anyway. Mostly in my head or through my journals because out loud, it allowed him to gaslight me. He never appreciated her.
Other people are natural at bringing her out. There have been some people over the years who I have the hardest time controlling myself even when I want to. I would go back and look at my response and be horrified. Some of them enjoyed it, though. It was like they were purposely setting me up.
That is what I find interesting, those enablers who are not horrified at all but want her to come out. I am not sure how to balance that but I think I must. I think letting her come out naturally and having someone encourage, reward, and punish me for her coming out may be the key to a sustainable dynamic.
Lisa Gray 