Such an interesting word for me. I put so many romantic connotations on it, but it encompasses other things, too. I know that want and longing for someone. It is longing for something that goes beyond typical love or romance. It can mean a control I want them to have over me, a possessiveness. I want to be thought of in certain ways.
I feel the negative as well. Am I a burden or annoyance to them? Am I good enough? Do we fit together? Do they think about me at all? My mind can enjoy that overthinking, but I also have to take a break from it.
Are they still in my mind? Yes. Every dirty, salacious thought may be of them. Every time I want someone to take me, to force me to submit in ways that would be forceful but not forcing at all, I will think of them.
Lisa Gray 